“It alters my mind, and my brain gets so fuzzy, all I can really do is focus on the moment rather than the past or the future, that’s the payoff.”
  “It gets so overwhelming, the emotions when I come into early recovery…I get angry, frustrated, I feel isolated….then I just end up leaving and coming back down here where I am comfortable.”

Yes, I can relate to that.  More proof that sugar really is an addiction, and requires all the support and effort to overcome that any other addiction would.

It’s interesting that he spoke about feeling strong and empowered when he’s using.

Junk - junk food.

Yes, and that it ‘alters his mind’.  At a work dinner a few years ago, I had a piece of lemon meringue pie.  Before eating it I had been quiet, subdued, nervous.  As soon as the sugar ‘hit’ (another drug reference) I became animated and funny and loud.  A co- worker said “wow, she is like a different person after eating that pie”.  It was a reality check to hear someone say that.  Sugar was making me feel “strong and empowered”, no doubt about it.