Last Time Binging?

December 06, 2005

I find that when I’m about to binge I’ll tell myself that it will be the last time I eat an entire box of what ever and that, starting tomorrow, I’ll eat right and keep control. It never works. What causes the binge?

Sunday night I binged on unsweetened foods. I ate toast, two apples, and a stir fry that I had made the day before. Oh yeah! I almost forgot to tell you…

On Saturday I got the shakes and the sweats. It happened all of the sudden, about midday, and I ran to the kitchen for something to eat. Despite the fact that my housemate had just baked brownies, which were sitting warm on the stovetop, the first thing I ate was carrots!

I didn’t want brownies (yeah!) and I felt a strong urge to cook! Yes, cook!

I boiled rice, cut up vegetables, and made a Chinese style stir-fry. It included broccoli, potatoes, onions, carrots, an egg, and tofu. I seasoned it with soy sauce (unsweetened) and it was great!

What I’m noticing most these days is how compulsive behavior seems to be required in my life. Since I’m not eating sugar regularly, I’m surfing the web more uncontrollably, or spending too much time thinking about things that probably don’t matter too much right now. But hey, I’m working on all of this one step at a time.