Symptoms

The symptoms of sugar abuse are here. Last night, after eating ice cream and candy, my head was spinning. I dreamt all night long. My sleep was light and I had to pee a lot. In the middle of the night I got up to pee and it came out slowly. This morning my jaw was tight as I brushed my teeth and my gag reflex was especially sensitive when I brushed my tongue. All of this is unusual for me but common if I eat lots of sweets. What’s more is that my overall mood is lethargic and lacking motivation. If I didnt have plans for today, sitting around would seem like appropriate activity. In 11 days I’ll be off sugar completely and we’ll see the changes.

Catch Up

Catch up:
I’ve eaten all my trigger foods.
I’m now eating only small amounts of sugar if any.
Waking up is slow and heavy.
My quit date is coming soon.

The Shakes

While walking in town today I suddenly felt really hungry and purchased fast food. While eating my hands shook and it felt like without that food then and there, I would have had no energy to keep walking. Even though I ate fast food (which included a chocolate chip cookie) this is part of the slow decline to a low/no sugar diet.

Low

Overall mood today is low. Low energy. Slow to wake up. Anxious. Got two slices of chocolate chip banana bread and ate them. Was desiring Flipz Chocolate Covered Pretzels but I know they’ll make me feel sick so didn’t get any. Even thought I’ve eaten dinner I still want something more to “satisfy” my system.

Moody

Oooh, very moody today. Things easily make me angry. Leave me alone.

Since being back on the sugar my sleep schedule is whack. I work well into the night and wake early (because my schedule demands) and then am tired all day.

A lady prepared her breakfast at the bus stop this morning. She poured some orange juice/drink from a plastic container into a half empty bottle of Sprite soda. Then she broke open a package of Pop Tarts and ate them. She was overweight and out of shape. How long has she been eating breakfast in that way? But then look at me.

Walked into the Safeway supermarket and couldn’t fathom the idea of eating another chocolate chip cookie. That’s good. Instead I purchased another trigger food—Ben and Jerry’s Half Baked ice cream. After that there is only one remaining sweet to eat before I quit on November 3rd!

I’m grossed out by my sweet self, my body is crying, and I want to avoid seeing people because of my sugar consumption. However, I’m upbeat, productive, and feeling exceptionally arousable.

Addendum: It’s about 5:15 PM and I am ready to collapse. My energy dropped simply from walking several blocks in my neighborhood. This sugar binge experiment is quite foolish. Walking made me tired, sweaty, and uncomfortable.

If it were possible, I’d go to bed now and sleep several hours but if so, I’d be awake all night and the cycle would get worse. Tomorrow my plan is to get the last trigger food—a loaf of chocolate chip banana bread—and begin sugar abstinence as soon as it’s devoured.

Choclate Chip Cookie Binge

This is sick and I’m embarrassed to write about it, but I ate a whole package of chocolate chip cookies today. 24 to be exact. I’m not talking little ones either. These were the same bakery cookies I purchased the other day. GROSS. I feel terrible.

At the check out a woman in front of me told the cashier, “Those cookies aren’t mine!” I felt ashamed! And a another strange thing happened today.

While eating the death biscuits, a strong smell of alcohol filled my senses! Yeah, like hard liquor. Every time I binge I tell myself it’s the last time but because my “start date” isn’t for another two weeks the crap just keeps getting into my system. And there’s only one person to blame…

A quote to think about:

“I have never, ever seen an alcoholic who wasn’t hypoglycemic. It just doesn’t occur, it’s the same problem.”
- Dr. Douglas M. Baird, HSF Medical Director, author of The Blood Sugar Hotline

Chocolate Chip Cookie Cravings

I really want another container of Chocolate Chip Cookies from the Safeway bakery. For some reason the idea of eating them gives comfort.

Degenerative diseases caused by regular sugar consumption include:

hypoglycemia, diabetes, chronic constipation, chronic stomach upset, intestinal gas, arthritis, asthma, headaches, osteoporosis, heart disease, obesity, chronic Candida infection, tooth decay, inflammatory bowel disease

Source: Addiction to Sugar by Ron Kennedy

Reactions

It’s hard to tell if what I’m feeling is “real” or influenced. Last night I wanted to talk and talk but had nothing to say. My body starts to shake and feel unstable if I do too much activity. Last night I ate two cookies for dessert after dinner. If there were more Chocolate Chip Cookies at home I’d have eaten them as well (at midnight).

Before coming home, there was an opportunity to eat some candy but that didn’t seem appealing. Perhaps I’ve managed to permanently associate candy with death in my mind. Cookies, on the other hand, still seem childishly fun!