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Tired, but not Tried!

November 07, 2005

I can’t make it through the day without wanting to nap. Tonight at 6 PM I thought it might be a good idea to go to sleep but instead came to the computer to write. It’s only been four days since I stopped eating sweets. Quitting sugar hasn’t been hard, but feeling energized has been a challenge. I’m still over eating and find myself snacking even though I’m not hungry.

I’ve eaten cheese, tofurky, bread, lettuce, natural peanut butter and apples, and drank nothing but water. Perhaps I need to discover some new sugar-free foods/snacks.

Posted on Nov 07, 2005

Crave Crave Go Away

November 06, 2005

If possible, I’d have stayed in bed all weekend. My energy levels have are shot even after a full night’s sleep. I am over-eating but at least it’s good food. However, my stomach has been surprisingly upset and bloated. On Friday I had heartburn all day. I’m eating the same amount of real food (rather than candy/cookies) and it’s filling me to the brim. Gross.

The sugar cravings are strong after a meal when some kind of dessert was the norm. Today I was offered mocha and cookies after lunch. I refused. My host was surprised and offered again. Again I politely refused. Right now, even though I’m stuffed after dinner, I still want to eat something sweet.

I’ve been peeing a lot. I have to get up in the middle of the night or early in the morning and also go many times during the day. The first two days after quitting I was often hot and sweating despite the cold weather. In the next two weeks my body will go through many adjustments.

Posted on Nov 06, 2005

There’s Nothing to Eat!

November 05, 2005

Since going off the sugar all that I notice is that junk food is everywhere!

While walking down the street yesterday I got hungry but there was nothing but junk food to be found. However, after really looking, even a place like Walgreens had a section with some cheese and a few things that weren’t sweevil (sweet’n'evil).

Also realized that spending money on sweets (or whatever you might be addicted to) is part of the addiction. Maybe that’s not news to you, but for me the act of BUYING sweets was almost as fun as eating them. Figuring out which snack to have, where to purchase, and when to eat is all part of the game…that I’m no longer playing.

I didn’t sleep well last night, am having trouble making simple decisions, and am quite anxious. Whether my symptoms are directly related to my diet is questionable, but we’ll see over time if things change as my body is replenished with healthier nutrients.

Posted on Nov 05, 2005

Staring Sugar in the Face

November 04, 2005

This morning, my first day not eating sugar, the first thing I saw was this:

Cake

Seems like all the foods in the house are laced with sugar. Suddenly there was extra Halloween candy by the front door that wasn’t there yesterday. Cereal is sweetened.

Peanut butter (natural & unsweetened!) and toast…

Posted on Nov 04, 2005

Quit Day Is Here!

November 03, 2005

Thank goodness today is my quit day. Below is a photo of the candy that I ate on November 1st, one day after Halloween. Don’t ask how I got it!

Yesterday I didn’t eat that much sugar comparitively, but it was still quite a bit. Today I’m feeling it and woke up tired. I slept all afternoon from noon until about 3:30 PM. Soon I’ll go out and eat the last sweets for a long time.

Jason and Summer gave me a birhday cake. I had three slices and then left to meet Gwenn downtown for First Thursday. While waiting for the bus, I purchased sweet potato fries and a cheeseburger from Burgerville. Fast food will have to go since it’s laced with sugar…

At First Thursday (a monthly event in Portland where artists open their galleries to the public) I ate a handfull of M&Ms. After First Thursday, and back at Gwenn’s house, I ate another chocolate birthday cake and Tillimook ice cream. That was the last sugary sweet for 2005 and 2006. Here’s a photo:

Gwenn made fun of me saying, “You’ve blamed every bad thing in your life on sugar in the past few weeks. What are you going to blame now that you have quit?”

Posted on Nov 03, 2005

Super Sugar Binge!

November 02, 2005

Got this email today:

We have stopped eating sugar as of November 1. Jen had gone 2 years with no sugar in the past, but began again about 3 years ago. We both are healthier and happier when we fill our bodies with healthy foods. We are not even eating honey or maple syrup. It is nice to be on a journey of health together.

Jen and David

Jen went two years without sugar! Wow. That’s impressive. I’ve added their names to the join me! page. Meanwhile I’m eating chocolate tonight. Tomorrow is my quit date. I will eat 2 sweets tomorrow: birthday cake and ice cream. Then I’m done. Then I’m ON!

Addendum

Okay, I wasn’t writing everything. Today I didn’t eat much of anything until about 4 PM when I started craving Peanut M&Ms. This is embarrassing but I’m gonna write about it because that’s what this blog is about.

Just now I went to the store and got a bag of Peanut M&Ms and a small bag of Chocolate Chip Cookies. It seemed like a good idea at the time. On the walk home I cracked open the M&Ms and was eating them from my pocket as I passed a man who smiled a wry smile. Now, I’m in Portland and people smile at each other on the streets, but I was sure he was laughing at me because I’d just purchased sugar.

My muscles today are tight and stiff. I don’t feel like dealing with anyone and I’m overall gloomy and somewhat sad. My feeling is that everything is temporary and we’re all ultimately doomed.

I’m happy that not everyone who knows me reads this blog. Most people have no idea I’m doing this. I’m writing for the people who search for sugar addiction. I’m writing for the people who, like me, obsess on things and sugar is one of the things they obsess about.

What gives me comfort today is knowing that soon my obsession with sugar will have to change and I won’t allow myself to channel energy into something so negative. Instead of obsessing about sugar, I’ll obsess about eating healthy.

No matter what, my thoughts are going to focus on something! Why not have it be something that helps me rather than hiders me.

Here’s what to ask yourself when you are about to bite into something sweet:

Am I building myself up or breaking myself down?

Then do the right thing.

One step at a time.

Posted on Nov 02, 2005

Two Days Left

November 01, 2005

Two days left until I stop eating sweets. After eating a ton of Halloween candy, the main things I feel is overall muscle tension and extreme moodiness.

Posted on Nov 01, 2005

Halloween 2005

October 31, 2005

Woke up today feeling depressed, slow, lethargic, and in pain. My shoulder was hurting (still is) in the joint and my get-up-and-go stayed asleep in bed. This weekend I ate sugar freely, if not irresponsibly, and tonight will eat more sweets. Only a few more days until cold turkey quitting time.

Did I mention that I’m really fidgety? When I’m sitting my leg is tapping a mile a minute. I also noticed that I’m pressing my front teeth together in anxiousness. Maybe it’s because tonight is Halloween and that spells CANDY!

Posted on Oct 31, 2005