David Vanadia

Super Sugar Binge!

November 02, 2005

Got this email today:

We have stopped eating sugar as of November 1. Jen had gone 2 years with no sugar in the past, but began again about 3 years ago. We both are healthier and happier when we fill our bodies with healthy foods. We are not even eating honey or maple syrup. It is nice to be on a journey of health together.

Jen and David

Jen went two years without sugar! Wow. That’s impressive. I’ve added their names to the join me! page. Meanwhile I’m eating chocolate tonight. Tomorrow is my quit date. I will eat 2 sweets tomorrow: birthday cake and ice cream. Then I’m done. Then I’m ON!

Addendum

Okay, I wasn’t writing everything. Today I didn’t eat much of anything until about 4 PM when I started craving Peanut M&Ms. This is embarrassing but I’m gonna write about it because that’s what this blog is about.

Just now I went to the store and got a bag of Peanut M&Ms and a small bag of Chocolate Chip Cookies. It seemed like a good idea at the time. On the walk home I cracked open the M&Ms and was eating them from my pocket as I passed a man who smiled a wry smile. Now, I’m in Portland and people smile at each other on the streets, but I was sure he was laughing at me because I’d just purchased sugar.

My muscles today are tight and stiff. I don’t feel like dealing with anyone and I’m overall gloomy and somewhat sad. My feeling is that everything is temporary and we’re all ultimately doomed.

I’m happy that not everyone who knows me reads this blog. Most people have no idea I’m doing this. I’m writing for the people who search for sugar addiction. I’m writing for the people who, like me, obsess on things and sugar is one of the things they obsess about.

What gives me comfort today is knowing that soon my obsession with sugar will have to change and I won’t allow myself to channel energy into something so negative. Instead of obsessing about sugar, I’ll obsess about eating healthy.

No matter what, my thoughts are going to focus on something! Why not have it be something that helps me rather than hiders me.

Here’s what to ask yourself when you are about to bite into something sweet:

Am I building myself up or breaking myself down?

Then do the right thing.

One step at a time.

Posted in My Personal Journal on 11/02/05

Two Days Left

November 01, 2005

Two days left until I stop eating sweets. After eating a ton of Halloween candy, the main things I feel is overall muscle tension and extreme moodiness.

Posted in My Personal Journal on 11/01/05

Halloween 2005

October 31, 2005

Woke up today feeling depressed, slow, lethargic, and in pain. My shoulder was hurting (still is) in the joint and my get-up-and-go stayed asleep in bed. This weekend I ate sugar freely, if not irresponsibly, and tonight will eat more sweets. Only a few more days until cold turkey quitting time.

Did I mention that I’m really fidgety? When I’m sitting my leg is tapping a mile a minute. I also noticed that I’m pressing my front teeth together in anxiousness. Maybe it’s because tonight is Halloween and that spells CANDY!

Posted in My Personal Journal on 10/31/05

Almost There

October 28, 2005

Been eating sugar freely and am feeling somewhat hopeless and depressed. As long as I don’t push too hard things seem to be okay but my walk today took all of my energy. Halloween parties this weekend will have me full of sugar!

Posted in My Personal Journal on 10/28/05

Sugar Stories Workshop

October 24, 2005

Thanks to Whitney, Amy, and Aaron for attending the Sugar Stories workshop held this evening at Whole Foods. In the workshop we shared stories about our sugar consumption and (hopefully) discovered some new ideas and common themes about our behavior. I’m excited to learn more about other people’s sugar addiction and am working on making this blog interactive so that anyone can add comments.

After the workshop I nearly purchased something sweet (chocolate covered pretzels, chocolcate chip cookies) but managed to avoid doing so. Only a few more days…

Posted in My Personal Journal on 10/24/05

About David

I realized I had a sugar problem back in 2003 after a weekend-long binge on raw chocolate chip cookie dough and chocolate covered pretzels. As a result, I began trying to quit sugar but kept failing. Finally, I figured out a way to stay off sweet junk food for good. Read more.