This has been going on for too long: the binging (a pint of ice cream and 4 brownies late afternoon is ‘normal’), telling myself, “this is the last time!”, then doing it all again the next day. And the next day. I’ve noticed this problem of mine and have been trying to quit (key word: trying, aka failing) for over 2 years. I’ve made it at most 7 or 8 days relatively sugar-free (maybe 4 times in 2 years, and they were great times) but then fallen back down deeper into sugar hell. But I can’t not be confident this time, things will be different. I mean that’s all I’ve got is willpower. And now this forum, so thanks for who’s here.
I like this game ‘you vs. sugar’. Today I lost. Tomorrow I win. Anybody ever read ‘The Sugar Addict’s Total Recovery Program’? The book suggests a potato at night to increase serotonin levels throughout the following day. Supposedly elevating serotonin levels increase impulse control. I did that for maybe a month, but then stopped when I realized I wasn’t even trying to stop eating sugar anymore. I wonder if it really helps at all. Seemed like it, but then again might have been placebo, not potatoes. Kind of scary to me to intentionally alter my brain chemistry, though. Although, what the heck scars is all this sugar leaving? Hopefully more like waves than scars. I get scared of long-term damages I’m inflicting by following craving for sugar rather than intelligence that says run like heck away.
So here we go: No sugar starts now. Because it’s not like there’s really going to be a better time. But I’m in pretty deep: like I said, a pint of ice cream and four brownies was my early dinner. Maybe I should ween off, but maybe that’s not an option because, like Guns ‘N’ Roses sang (I think about heroin), “i used to do a little but a little wouldn’t do / so a little got more and more / i just keep trying to get a little better / a little better than before.” (Mr. Brownstone)
I have been addicted to and quit cocaine, alcohol, marijuana, caffeine/coffee, chewing tobacco (gross), Adderall, various combinations of these (ie: beer red bull adderall tobacco). Things are better now. I meditate: that helped make everything else far less appealing. But sugar is proving to be the toughest thing to shake, mostly because a) it’s so socially acceptable and readily available and, b) i can’t just not eat like i can just not take drugs, and c) i keep thinking a little won’t hurt. But I’m wrong. This has been going on for too long. So wish me luck. Good luck to all of you. Stay strong!